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Letter to God

birth mom with nose ring

I became a birthparent at age 19. I was in nursing school when I became pregnant and had no support system. My mother died the year before, my father was not in my life, and my grandfather kicked me out when I decided against having an abortion. I began to explore adoption but grew fearful. What if my child grew up believing that I did not love or want him? What if he hated me for my decision to place him for adoption? Filled with fear and confusion, I wrote a letter to God asking for guidance and clarity. If adoption was the best thing for him, I wrote the traits I wanted his adoptive parents to have.

After Joseph was born, we faced several traumatic situations and that was when I realized I could not give him the life he deserved. When he was six months old, I placed him for adoption. Joseph’s adoptive parents are everything I prayed for in my letter to God.

Education is an infinite and enlightening experience that transforms society. With the power to break barriers and eradicate misconceptions, education pushes us to leave our comfort zones by challenging our current thoughts and beliefs, resulting in growth. Additionally, it provides the foundation needed for individuals to feel confident in their abilities and develop their full potential. Benjamin Franklin stated that an investment in knowledge pays the best interest and I agree wholeheartedly. The knowledge we gain from formal education and life experiences can be applied over a lifetime and passed on to others.

This scholarship will make a difference in my life by providing the financial stability I need to focus on my studies and enable me to achieve my professional goal of becoming a Certified Registered Nurse Anesthetist. Upon completion of my Doctoral program, I will be able to make a difference in someone else’s life as this scholarship has done for me over the years. My goal is to give $5,000 to a birthparent who aspires to pursue a career in the medical field. I am a firm believer of the saying “to whom much is given, much is expected.” My Lifetime Adoption Foundation Scholarship 2023 paved the way for my undergraduate education, and it is now allowing me to pursue my Doctor of Nursing Practice in Anesthesia. It is only right that I pay it forward.

– 2023 Scholarship Recipient